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i love how i remember this site every now and then on a late night wim and read the last thing i wrote. seems crazy how fast things are changing when you doesn't actually sit down and look at it. I love this site and all the good times that i recall putting with it. The last time i updated i was in love with two of my ex's one of which was Paul... duh... well our son is no longer 6 1/2 months ...  oh no that crazy little man is 2!! in just one week. And i can't tell you how amazing he is.

as far as still being in love with paul? i would have to say no. I love him as a family member but thats normal, i mean i am practicaly part of his family and we have a child together. Oh and who was the other ex i was still in love with? James Mcknight AKA Andy. And how is that going for me? Well lets just say i live with him, well i'm moving in with him currenty so i guess you could say i got my way with that one :D He is so great to me and he works as hard as he can with brier and to support us both.  

Last time i was on here i proclaimed that i wanted to kill myself, and was actually thinking about it. yeah well i almost did try, ended up in depression rehab that didn't work, but i have turned me life around. There aret hings i wish where different, like i want to be close to poeple from high school again, and to heal some open wounds with people just to clear the air.

well i love you all and i hope life is treating you all well ;)

---Sherinda Marie

AKA Reni_roo_boo

It's kinda funny how times flyes

how i look back on my blogs

and have NO idea what i was talking about

how i wrote about a boy who i "HATED"

and now have a 6 1/2 month old son with!

wrote poems that where sad before "emo" was bad

and didn't have a clue what myspace was.

i loved just blogging and no picture message this or that

and bulletins. i loved

SIMPLE

no one will read this nor rememeber this sight. so i might as well say how i feel...

i am in love with 2 of my ex's

Paul Joseph Bartucca

&

James Andrew McKnight III

i don't have a best friend cause i hate people

and i might kill myself in the coming weeks

but my fear is if i don't succeed they will take my son away

and that if i did my son would have to live with that thought forever.

why does life suck!?!?!?

another thing to say.

i think i am a slut now

i think about sex ALOT

and i like to tease guys

maybe that is part of my being depressed

i want the attention...i don't know

i do know that god probably hates me by now.

oh well.

hey people.... 2008..... all these years later.. life sucks

... i miss this site

I don't even know what to say

i just feel like i have to write, it's one of those days! just one of those thing! i hurt someone i care about...i feel lost right now and not for any particular reason and i am totaly PISSED OFF!! i wish all these feelings would go away!!

I'm sorry! that all i wanna say! but i can;t..i hurt like 3 people yesterday for telling them how i feel!! is that so wronge?? i hate hurting people!! what did i do?? i juts want people to lisen to me! but i think i have a bad way of teling them!!

oh well....................always.....sherinda

I don't feel like dancing or singing a song

Deep down in side there is somthing wronge

an emotion of dispare, quiet, and sarrow

How will i feel, even tomarrow?

Is this what it will be like, when you depart

Me wishing you hadn't deep in my heart

Take care of yourself so far away

For i wish to see you, yet another day

I will cry for you my soldier

A true honor of a man

As you weep out of frustration

even as you stand

We are both scared as we stand here now

I stand and look at you with your wrinkled up eyebrow

you walk away now, leaving my heart sore

I wish you didn't have to go to war!!

                                           4 The Soldiers      

                                          ~GOD BLESS~